Kyungjong knows when he first meets Hajin—introduced to him by Jihyuk, who knows him through Byunghee, or maybe it's the other way around—Kyungjong knows that he's not Hajin's type. Hajin is tall and gangly and handsome in a puppyish way, all long limbs and curly hair and the kind of easy, unassuming grin that girls fall for hard and fast. And, most importantly, Hajin likes girls.
Hajin likes girls a lot, actually. Kyungjong learns that quickly. Hajin likes tiny girls with delicate hands and long hair, pouty lips and dark eyelashes and legs that look longer than they are. He likes the curves of girls' waists and the shadows of their cleavage, when their shirts slip down and they don't notice. Hajin is a connoisseur of girls, an appreciator of the female form, and Kyungjong knows he will never be Hajin's type.
"Want to know something?" Hajin asks one night, when he's drunk and covered in lipstick marks, sitting in the bathroom while Kyungjong wets a cloth to put on Hajin's forehead.
"What?"
"If you were a girl," Hajin begins, and Kyungjong knows, with a sick sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach, exactly where this is going, "I would totally date you. You'd be my ideal type!"
"The hell are you talking about, man?" Kyungjong demands, his voice too loud to cover up the sudden thickness in the back of his throat. Hajin is too drunk to notice, anyway. Not that he needs alcohol to be oblivious—he's pretty good at that on his own. "Put this on your face."
Kyungjong is tiny, sure and he has delicate hands, and sometimes he pouts more than he means to. But he's a boy, definitely. Delicate hands attached to strong wrists and forearms and biceps, and his waist will never curve like a girl's does, and Kyungjong will never catch Hajin's attention in a cloud of perfume and sultry murmurs and long hair.
He doesn't want to be all that, honestly. Kyungjong just wishes that who he is could be enough.
From the moment that they meet, Kyungjong knows that he'll never be Hajin's type, but he doesn't really know it until the birthday that Hajin forgets. Forgets because of a girl, honestly, like there wasn't enough salt that Hajin pours in the wound on a normal day—and Kyungjong wants it to be okay. He really wishes he could be okay with it, just laugh because Hajin is so predictable and move on. But he can't, and it's not okay, because even if Kyungjong knows he will never be Hajin's type, he at least thought (hoped) that he would be more important than the nameless, faceless girls that Hajin runs through ten a week.
But even in that, it seems like Kyungjong was wrong.
FUCK ING CRYING. I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO READING THIS FOR HOURS BUT I JAD COMPANY BUT UAGHHH!! KYUNGJONG BB T^T why did I ask for this again?? I must be an otp masochist >~< ok so now I'm going to need you to write a long fic version of this. Actually... Can you just write an entire SUFBB longfic in which all the angst of all the friendships and other ships is explored, rolled around in and then fixed? I want to see them suffer in their heart wrenching angsty teenage lives but only if it means it gets them to a happier place in the end T^T ugh babies... tvn needs to not. They're killing me with excellent drama characters. Why can people write fic about drama characters WHY ISN'T THIS A THING????? Emily you are the loveliest of souls because you've now written TWO fucking perfect SUFBB fics I've asked you for and I fucking love you for it ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 너한테 케이크 만들고 싶다. 케이크의 섹시한 꽃미남밴드 멤버들을 나는 만들겠다 ㅠㅠ 베미리 많이 사랑한다 ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ 나무 사랑하니까 한국어 말해야 한다ㅏㅏㅏㅏ ㅠㅠㅠ
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Kyungjong knows when he first meets Hajin—introduced to him by Jihyuk, who knows him through Byunghee, or maybe it's the other way around—Kyungjong knows that he's not Hajin's type. Hajin is tall and gangly and handsome in a puppyish way, all long limbs and curly hair and the kind of easy, unassuming grin that girls fall for hard and fast. And, most importantly, Hajin likes girls.
Hajin likes girls a lot, actually. Kyungjong learns that quickly. Hajin likes tiny girls with delicate hands and long hair, pouty lips and dark eyelashes and legs that look longer than they are. He likes the curves of girls' waists and the shadows of their cleavage, when their shirts slip down and they don't notice. Hajin is a connoisseur of girls, an appreciator of the female form, and Kyungjong knows he will never be Hajin's type.
"Want to know something?" Hajin asks one night, when he's drunk and covered in lipstick marks, sitting in the bathroom while Kyungjong wets a cloth to put on Hajin's forehead.
"What?"
"If you were a girl," Hajin begins, and Kyungjong knows, with a sick sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach, exactly where this is going, "I would totally date you. You'd be my ideal type!"
"The hell are you talking about, man?" Kyungjong demands, his voice too loud to cover up the sudden thickness in the back of his throat. Hajin is too drunk to notice, anyway. Not that he needs alcohol to be oblivious—he's pretty good at that on his own. "Put this on your face."
Kyungjong is tiny, sure and he has delicate hands, and sometimes he pouts more than he means to. But he's a boy, definitely. Delicate hands attached to strong wrists and forearms and biceps, and his waist will never curve like a girl's does, and Kyungjong will never catch Hajin's attention in a cloud of perfume and sultry murmurs and long hair.
He doesn't want to be all that, honestly. Kyungjong just wishes that who he is could be enough.
From the moment that they meet, Kyungjong knows that he'll never be Hajin's type, but he doesn't really know it until the birthday that Hajin forgets. Forgets because of a girl, honestly, like there wasn't enough salt that Hajin pours in the wound on a normal day—and Kyungjong wants it to be okay. He really wishes he could be okay with it, just laugh because Hajin is so predictable and move on. But he can't, and it's not okay, because even if Kyungjong knows he will never be Hajin's type, he at least thought (hoped) that he would be more important than the nameless, faceless girls that Hajin runs through ten a week.
But even in that, it seems like Kyungjong was wrong.
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